now some of you will say" blah blah blah, shut up josh, your soooo melodramatic," and what not...well i don't really care, an issue has been brought to my attention and i'm going to deal with it, not ignore it, like some other people would want me to do...f*ck that. i don't run from my issuse, i like to attack them, and debate, and solve.! so here's my issue, why are the morales of people that call themselves frineds, so f*ckin sh*tty!!!! some people, think i'm stubborn. well britta, you're right, i am..some people think i'm serious. well anna you're right, i am. some people think that i'm crazy for thinking that you can just expect people to feel the same about other people as i do...well josh i think you are right. i am crazy. because you can't make people love you, you can't even make them like you. you can't make people believe you, you can't make people understand you, you can't even make them see what you are feeling when you are right there in front of them, and they know how you feel about sh*t, and the fact that it's REALLY REALLY f*ckIN HARD TO BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR , AND THEY KNOW ALL OF THIS, BUT DON'T EVEN CARE ENOUGH TO WAIT FOR A MORE APPROPRIATE TIME TO GET INTO SOME f*ckERS PANTS.!!! SURE ID LOVE TO BUY A TICKET AND WATCH THE 2 OF YOU FONDLE EACH OTHER ALL f*ckING NIGHT, LIKE I'M NOT f*ckING EVEN THERE!!!!!, LIKE NONE OF US WERE. THAT WAS SELFISH AND RUDE, AND VERY INCONSIDERATE, AND IF YOU THINK THAT IF I'M MAD AND I SHOULD ONLY BLAME MYSELF, THEN f*ck YOU!! I DON'T NEED FRIENDS THAT DON'T CALL, FRIENDS THAT DON'T TALK, FRIENDS THAT SAY ONE THING AND THEN DO ANOTHER, FRIENDS THAT KNOW DAMN WELL HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THEM AND SAY THINGS WHEN THEY ARE DRUNK LIKE, "I LOVE YOU TOO, WE ARE SOOO MEANT FOR EACH OTHER, JUST NOT IN THAT WAY.....SO DO YOU WANNA HAVE SEX?!!" NO f*ck YOU I DON'T I DON'T WANT TO SLEEP WITH A RANDOM. I HATE RANDOMS, f*ck RANDOMS....HE IS A RANDOM. I WAS REAL. I WAS REAL TO YOU, I GAVE YOU MORE CHANES THAN YOU EVER GAVE ME. WHAT WAS IT THAT I DID TO DESERVE YOU AND HIM GETTING TOGETHER LIKE THAT? IN FRONT OF ME FOR GODS SAKE? HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME? FOR REAL? I DON'T NEED A FRIEND LIKE THAT.NOT AT ALL. i don't need you,and i don't want anything to do with you. you hurt me more than you will ever know. and in the process i lost 2 friends...sh*tty. you are all so f*cking young. and you sit there and wonder why we all can't just get along. i'll tell you why we can't...it's cause when someone feels like i do about you anna, and then it turns to sh*t, there is nothing left i have to give you. i gave it to you already and you didn't want it. so f*ck it...i don't need to follow you through life watching you hurt me. f*ck that. i'm not into the bondage/hurt sh*t....not my style. and when you are 28 years old, and you have been through what i have been through, you will understand, and all those nights spent on the phone with you, telling you about everything, you never were listening, you just pretended to know what i was talking about, cause if you did listen, you would know me, you don't even know me, and that is why, when i say that i don't want to be your friend anymore, you will understand....but you can't. you can't understand why someone would rather never see you again than just be friends, to you and your 18 year old mind, it doesn't make sense...well it even made sense to me when i was your age, so i guess you have some learning to do. i'm not going to sit and wait for anna to figure herself out. i'm not that good of a friend to you for that. i have one girl who wieghs me down mentally sometimes, and it drains me. i cant afford another. and do what britta? put my interests into someone or something else so i can foget how i feel about her and then we can stay friends? no i don't think so. sounds too good to be true to me, sort of the vibe i got when i first looked into her eyes....... the worst part is that she will be missed. if you call i will answer, if you write, i will respond, but under no circumstances am i a friend to you. you will only get the cheap common courtisy i give to random people on the street...i need to save my energy for people that will respect what i have to offer....it cool, no hard feelings really, just a bunch of bullsh*t. we disagree on the real issues at hand. HOW PEOPLE TREAT EACHOTHER! thats all i care about, and you suck at it. you really do. you are going to have a hard life, unless you can completely detach yourself from the wold and your heart. then you can be a midless person and not have to worry about how much it hurts that you had someting and never pushed it to see what would happen...we both will never know what could have happened...it is done. i had fun knowing you anna, but the last day i knew you was the worst day i've ever had. that was more of a slap in the face then when amber left. at least she had the courisy of not doing that sh*t in front of me. that was pretty immature..............
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